what a gift
i've never felt more helpless, or more far away. and the waiting.
ugh! the waiting is just brutal!
waiting in doctor's offices. waiting on calls back. waiting for tests. waiting for the next step..
waiting for surgery. and most of all, waiting on this day, wednesday, for the results about it all.
her appointment was early, and i was glad...
i didn't want to have to try to distract my mind all day from worrying.
i don't usually wake up terribly early, as those of you who know me, know. ;)
but this morning, i did. and laid in bed, holding the phone in my hand, waiting for her call Comelow.
so many things go through your mind in those kind of times of waiting.
finally, she called and i don't even remember if we said, hi, first. only the words, "it was benign!"
and i don't think i knew just how tightly i was really holding my breath, until i heard that international SEO.
and then i felt all giddy. and then we cried together.
there are precancerous cells that they will begin to treat.
but we are just so thankful for a positive result and even the fact that they've now caught the precancer and can begin dealing with that.
thank you, so much, to those who have been praying. ~
ya know. i've been sitting here all morning thinking of how there's some tough stuff that comes at us in life.
every day there is the temptation to get discouraged..
to believe the lies the God doesn't care. He's distant or silent.
but regardless of what we're facing, the good always outweighs the bad.
because God is always good .. and positive test results or no, that never changes!!
and we can trust His plan, even when it doesn't make sense, or seems hurtful plastic storage drawers.
what we have to be grateful for far, far exceeds any of the trials that overshadow that at times...
just to be alive. today! what a gift.
thank you Jesus for each new day. for protection and health.
everything is Your mercy. and we are held in the palm of Your hand.